Introduction

Why did I replace my old website with this one? Because I wanted a site with a layout like this since long time. I enjoy challenging myself by creating different templates, as it allows me to discover new ways of coding. Even though I've already built many other websites, this one makes me feel more comfortable. Moreover, on my old site, "Hitaku's World," I had trouble making changes, as if I wanted to keep it on pause. It also brings back memories that are hard for me to replace. Most importantly, I’ve always wanted a website with this kind of layout, and this time, I wanted to finish it completely and building it from scratch.

When i go to my Diary website, I personnaly view it in the full screen with F11 touch. And most of the time, when I do update, i need to clear the cache manually on my phone and on my laptop I use the ctrl + F5 touch

Hey it's me again, just to say that the nav on the top is scrollable. And i added my guestbook :)

You can also "zoom out" to see the full background. Kinda worth it !!

My website is personal like a diary i can share with you. Thanks for visiting, it means a lot to me, really really!! Oh and feel free to write comment or sign my guestbook, i'd love to reply and read what you have to say hehe!! SEE YOU NEXT TIME!

Honestly i am sorry for anyone who come so my corner of the intternet because its messy, i add content but i don't sort in chronolicaly (wtw is this word again..) in order and i still didn't figured out how can i wrote so you can see the new content. But anyway i feel like people don't really mind my website so it's okay because i love it and as long as i'am ok with it, then everything is fine!! ohhhh i just saw i can call it mood dump or random thoughts xdd weeelll, consider my site like that hehe!!

About me

Most of the time I am quiet and calm. But if I trust you, I'll be a talkative girl XD.

My close circle is my bff, and my online boy friend I LOVE THEM <3

I'm passionate by Computer Science, like, I'm curious and I love discovering new things like making different type of website. Also, I like to learn new things. I often use AI but no worries, AI are too dumb to remplace human X( and most of the time they do bad job mph. I just find it helpful to get the informations than searching 3 hours in Google and YouTube uhh... And they explain well (sometimess). I always ALWAYYSSS ask questions and all and wanna understand the things I write in my code!! After all, computer science is my passion, so it makes sense haha.

I have a cat hehe she is so cute!

Hobbies

I love talking with my friends, coding, going outside with people I like, seeing my bff, having fun with my family, drawing, riding my rollerblades, going to park or in places with lot of trees or flowers (nature xd) ect. Like lakes and all. I love admiring the beauty of the world. Everything looks so perfect. And I love going to the city!!

Sometimes, I do puzzles or go to my bff home or we hang out together or call. We often buy food or go to restaurents. One time we did shopping for the first time toghether and it was really fun. I LOVE BUYING CLOTHES AND MAKE HER HAPPY AND SPOIL HER AHH!!!!!. Oh! and I love to take pictures (not of people)! Also I have lot of diaries and I love writing to get it out of my chest when I can't talk about it (it's kinda messy and filled with doodles and drawings. if i had a crush on you, you'll be on my diares for sureeee). I encourage you to write down things to get it out of your chest too, because personnaly, I feel lighter and like i can move on or heal, talking about it and asking for help is also something even better!! I also like to make collages on Pinterest or some digital drawings, I love creativity and admiring other people succes or work, creations etc!. I like new technologies btw but it progress so fast that now I am lost XD and I love to learn all the options or settings they have I don't mind if it's software or hardware (hope you get it xd). I also love video games so so so so much, I could talk about it for hoursss!!!! (but don't have expectations, I stopped playing years ago XDD)

Anime

• Shingeki no kyojin
• Little witch academia
• Tengoku daimakyou
• Ao haru ride
• Suzume
• Bubble
• I want to eat your pancreas
• Weathering with you
• Blue lock
• Kimi ni todoke
• Hunter X Hunter
• Nana
• Snk junior highschool
• Kaichou wa maid sama!
• Demon slayer
• A silent voice
• The girl who leapt through time
• A whisker away
• Cyberpunk: edgerunners
• Chainsaw man
• Jujutsu kaisen
• Buddy daddies
• Banana fish
• Death note
• One punch man
• Reign of the seven spellblades
• Drifting home
• Spirited away
• Sky-high survival
• Dandadan
• Kaiju N°8
• Run with the wind

I love watching animes because I appreciate people animations, drawings, creativity in generales! Moreover, we learn things, some teach us stuff and help to see different percpective or question our self. Some feel also safe and soothing and to me, anime make me voyage like I enter new worlds. Sometimes it's also very funny and the story is amazing!!

Blog (more like a 1% of what's in my head)

22 nov 2025

Doing something because I know they love it, that’s another kind of love
Not usually my type to do things like that, but for my loved one I try, muehehe.

Ohhhh, I once made a quote page and I loved it sooo much… hehehe. I already feel ideas bubbling up again, but huuu, I have to stop my dreaming mind because I need to keep studying. To do list over To do list XP

21 nov 2025

huuuu yk what i want to do? add graphism thrinkets stuff and maybe also javascript so this website is cooler hehe i have some idea in mind but I don't know if i'll have time because unfortunately university and my future is more important

sooo i'll do it slowly on my side and then upload when i finish
(if i finish one day HAHHAHA)

18 nov 2025

NO WAYYYY!!! I finnaly did it!! i know how to use binary things! like to convert a decimal to binary and vice versa, and same for hexa decimal! i even re learned how to write down a addition and a soustraction omg! I cant belive i finnaly understand this... oki hehe try this: 01010011 01110101 01101110 73 68 69 6E 65 (there is 8 letters, the first one are on binary and the 5 last ones on hex code.) <3

16 nov 2025

Oki oki yesterday i was such a dramatic XDD but i understand why i felt like that and honestly I was just overthinking. Just emotions, not fact!! What I thought wasn’t real, it was anxiety saying wrong things in my head. So I stopped writing and I got up to do something else because keeping myself busy helps me avoid negative thoughts. It’s the only way for me to not break down!! News: it was really the medicine’s fault that I was frequently disconnected from the world and couldn’t focus XP. Nothing interesting going on in my life muehehe! I still dream everyday about my future dream life and I keep questioning myself! See ya when I’ll have something interesting to say.

Oh and an advice for myself: sometimes what we think is not the reality or what’s actually going to happen. Take time to calm down before talking about something. Stay calm and patient (yup it’s hard and I do crash out sometimes oupsie, but I’m working on it and I control myself better than before). Another advice? Mmm… time is the solution, and recognize your mistakes and apologize if needed. (It’s more for me than for the people reading it!! I just want to keep a trace here to remember my progress.)

My sis cooked my fav dinner heheheheheheeeeee was so delicious!

15 nov 2025

Sometimes i regret caring too much. Like, just be honest with me instead of- f*ck, i am always the one being ignored in the end, the one leaving because of too much pain-, ok breath. bye there will be no thoughts dump for today, anyway no one care

14 nov 2025

Hiiiiiiii after twoooo daayyssss HIHI!!
I am frustrated because i love computer sience but i feel like i struggle about what the teachers ask us to do, i know it doesn't define me because i undersand the code when its about site web but it's urh idk, i think i just need more time than other students and i know something about my self it's for exemple if i stress because i am not studying then i just need to open my book and study. Yes very easy XP

Oki it's cool to follow details stuff they ask. It give me a line so i am not lost. I still prefer to code my websites and learning stuff i wan't to learn or at least when i need it, instead of their boring stuff!! Plus I forget the homeworks and exams we have even if i do note it on my schedule. Can you believe i even forget to check my schedule and e-mails... yuupp i am very bad to follow the rythm huu. Plus when we are in class and need to do exercices, i don't have enough time so i need to continue at home but brooo i have other stuff to do and i forget soooo.. It's just overwhelming and hard to learn plus staying organazied buutttt i still very passionate and i worry because i care huuu. Still i find it hard mph. And it's very pressuring omgg

However, i won't give up, no matter if i have to re do the same year because i failed, i will do it. I am going to have this diploma to acces to my dream and prove my self i can do it hehe!!!

By the way, the doc changed the dose of my med to lower the side effects and said yes it's a good idea to see a therapist again because oki everyone have bad days and mood change but it does not mean we have to deal with it on our own. Still i think i can deal with it for now hehe i am a strong girl no doubt about it hehe! Plus, he gave me an advice; to keep my self busy so i don't overthink because human have a tendancy to see the negative side first (totally true). So yup it's something i'll try to do more and keep doing because yes i wasn't very busy those days so it explain XD. Oh and about the probleme to focus and zone out, he said my mental state can lead to this too, even if the medicine can have a role in this ! And another advice is; doing sport is a good idea, even if i love to walk, doing a sport in group can help me to feel better and he added i can also realise we all have struggles XDD!!! he really helped me and i'll think about everything he said but for now i am tired hehe! All of this can only lead to good things so what can i lose by just doing it hehe!

12 nov 2025

Yesterday i was trying to study but I was kinda on the fog, zoning out. And then my bff said yes to call hehe i was so relieved to call her because it's been a while we didn't talked (1 day xdd). When i talked to her i immediatly felt better. Then we talked and talked for hours and in the end i finally studied for an exam. I think i failed but i'll try to do better next time!! And if the grades is not enough, it's fine because i can have other chance, plus there is many oppurtunities in life so it's clearly not the end of the world to me :p

I feel like some people around me change, i don't know but i also notice some things wich makes me see the other people in another perspective. Maybe because I am more intersted on who they are and not what they think about me, or what i feel. Make sense? I dunno XD. Anyway people change, life is not stable, we feel, things happen and sometimes we don't talk anymore so we have to appreciate the good time we had and the good effect they had on us.

I feel like i am not ready to talk about some things neither being on a relationship because I need to work on myself. By the way i'm not saying there is perfect moment, don't misunderstand pls. I don't know but the side effects of my meds and how i handle my life (i mean school) is too a=pi*oq^mmllq,xnsoacvvcb, i might need to ask for help even if i am doing good (i swear). It's just okay to ask some help, we can not do everything by our self. I... i want to but it's hard. Maybe there is really something wrong or maybe i am just too comfortable and sleeping mimimi

I noticed the way i try to protect too much no matter if its my self or others, how i can get defensive in 1 sec, how i can push people away, how i shut down. I know the reason of why i am like that and i am sorry i spoke like that to her. It's is not true,it's not because we are not that close that i can disrespect, not listening, take my own decision or think our relation is nothing. I could had a healthy conversation with her but i- urh.... I am stuck. I don't want to destroy our dream neither. No matter if I say yes or no, one of them will be affected. Should i go through this again? Taking the risk,... I see the solution but it's just too hard to talk to her about it. I think i just need some water! see you cutie heart <3

O.M.G. you won't believe what happened! oki oki first, when i was writting the paragraphe just above, my bff asked me iif i want to come over. I immediatly said yes and closed my laptop to run to her XD because i was really feeling down. Thanks i have her to always make me feel better, just by her presence I can feel better!! So, I helped her to put stars stickers on her bedroom roof and omg its soooooo prettyyy!!! i even took pics and then decided to pout it as a wallpaper on my phone hehe so i can have a part of her with me all the times!! She took me home and on our way, we was on a street on then wow i saw a line on the sky and it was like a line of starts!!!! She saw it too and i was in total admiration so exited about it! Then i saw it was moving! I told her it was moving but she told me she don't see huu... and it was slowly diseapering noooo!!!... By the way, all this story about stars was like in 5min. When it diseapperd, i couldn't believe what we just saw. So i took my phone and yap yap the situation to chat gpt and omgg you know what was those stars???? It was the Starlink satellite of space X created in 2015 by Elon Musk! Broooo????? I CANTTTT!!!!! The pictures looked like the same, and it was diseapering because it was reflecting the sunlight but the earth hide the sunlight slowly! I don't know if it was really the line of satelites of space x or another one but space x have lot of starlinks apparently. Oh and the project was on 2019 sorry!! I don't really have knowledge on it and didn't searched enough but woowww i hope everyone can see it in real life! ITS SO PRETTYYYY AND AAAHHHHH! There is pictures on the internet also!! That's all hehe! I really wanted to share it with you! And don't you find it amazing that, just few minutes ago we was craeting a mini galxy on her room and waaaw then we saw Starlinks!!!!! Also yesterday i was looking at stars on the sky in the nights and it was really beautiful, i also saw constelations hihi! so when i walked with my bff, I was looking at the sky. XD i am wondering like i wanna have a job about space, being a sientific so cool with hehe! omg but nooooo i can already buy a telescop and look at staaarrrssss!!!!! Could even travel worldwide to admire galaxy events!! woaawww it would be so cool!!! Hehe byee see you for another ramble! Wish you all to have a super resting peacful night!!

10 nov 2025

I talked with my online friend and I feel way more better now. One advice I can give you is to be honest with each other. Share your doubts, don’t restrain yourself because of fear, pride, or anything else, and ask questions. Communication is always the key to a healthy relationship. Don’t forget that we all have feelings and we can't read each other’s mind.

Time ago, I saw a video of a girl who said that when you don’t text first on purpose, ignore someone, or give the silent treatment, the person won’t understand better. They will just doubt their place in your heart and misunderstandings will grow. They might even doubt themselves. And will think you are not intersted or don't care anymore even if that is not true and you just expect a reaction in return. As I said, we can’t know what someone is thinking if they don’t communicate. Keep an open mind please, because it doesn’t apply to every situation and I might explain it badly hehe.

And omg i am just so happy that we talked!! Even just a lil bit. My overthinking stopped, my mind is clearer and misunderstanding is gone too i guess xdd! I can sleep better tonight. I have lot more thing to say and you maybe can't understand how i feel and what i didnt said but mmm i forgot what i wanted to say oupsi!
Also, i wanted to share that i was so suprised to the littlelest interaction three innofensive people had with my account like following me or, responding to my comment or liking it. It mean so much to me i promise it made my day! So thank you very much because i started to feel hopeless

I, hum sorry yup chat gpt wrote this (the thing bellow between quote), i won't pretend the opposite but it explain very well and that's something i could say if my mind was'nt too chaotic like that.

Apparently i have emotional intelligence but there is something i thought about writting it here; to me a good relationship friend ship whatever, is with honesty, communication, understanding, support, patience, care, respect. It's the most important thing i can think about. And, in my case, i prefer deep closeness with people and lot of all the thing i said above because that's what makes me feel safe with someone and comfortable. Otherwise, I start to distance myself, doubt things, lose trust, and misunderstandings can appear.
And it's a totally different story with people i am not close enough with.

09 nov 2025

I bought a plushie yesterday, its winnie the pooh and i love it so much because there is a heat source inside i can put warm water, and the plushie is so soft!! i always loved winnie!! so its heavy and warm like a a lil baby comforting to hold! i just want to carry it everywhere!! And i am glad i bought it because it helped me a lot today! I cried so much this night my eyes was puffy like the mouth of Santagreentchi XDD (I love tamatotchi mueheheh)!!! I love when i can make people happy because there is nothing more beautiful than seeing them smile or laugh.

I remember downloading lot of apk games xd and there was a period when i used to play a lot roblox! I even had online friends! And i was so happy when i had people to play with me!

Wow i just realized i gave the link of this website to some people i know bruh, if you are here just let me be a delulu in peace, we can even cringe together muehehe!

hihihi i finnaly find how to write my new conteennntt!! it will be on the top with a date like this heheh.

Random:

I proposed to my online friend if he wanna call with me. I was soooo nervous, it was the first time I called him. We also never sent voice notes before.
He have a pretty deep voice, I love his voice! And i was giggeling so much xd because I was stressed. He talk so well in english also, I swear this boy is amazing!! And he is kind like idk it was fitting how I saw him before we called. It was cool hehe!
(Now we call sometimes and I love talking to him! I hope nothing change between us!! And same with my best friend!! <3)

hehe i have girl friends at university!! They are very kind and funny and I've met new people recently who are so funny omg and they have the same interest as me like CS, video games, gooofy videos, XDD) And there is a girl also, i very like her!! I find her genuine and i love her soul <3

My bestie, she is the most amzaing soul i have ever met. i wont talk about her because she is my little secret hehe. SHE IS MINE NUH UH. go find your own pretty soul mph <3

I am glad I came back to my code... I feel guilty when i dont do the things i like and idk, its comforting to see this interface. like, hell yeah I know how to code, i finnally did it! i'll be a good *put a word to say someone who work in computer sience xd*!! Keep doing the things you like, keep learning and aknowledge your progress <3

(yes i still not know how to say "informatique" in english, my bad sorry you who struggle to understand my non sense)

My note 2 month ago:

I love when sometimes me and my bff have sparkling cool cutie conversation in message! and i like when we call, and she do too!! like, we said something like after the day, if we have time, we call each other and yapp yap yap XDD!! We are two cutie patoutie bff and we know each other well hehe I LOVE HEEERRRR!!!!. She say she don't mind that I don't knwo how to comfort because just being with me is enough, it's so cute don't you think?!. I still want to get better at talking and comforting hehe!! I love improving my self and make her feel better!!
Me and my friends it's for ever and we are healthy so we always communicate and fix our problems. i hope everyone could have friends like mine and i'll do everything and anything for theemm!!!!
— Uni is stressing, actuallyyyyyy i still have stressing problem but its fine i am a big girl, i deal with it faster and better than before muehehehe!!! It's just that i don't like the stress about ewams because my study matter for me, i care about it so I don't want to falling behind hihi! And omggggg i believe something like you know when we say something like having butterflies?? well i think butterflies are just anxiety because how am i supposed to be okay with a situation that just hurt me or make me stress deeply that my stomach feel turns and squeeshed??? yup oki sometimes it's just eyes contact but hey let's keep it secret (how do I manage jumping to another totally random thing like that???? omg sorry HAHA it's so chaotic!)

List of nonsense just below:

— Yesterday,my best friend told me she want to call after the day because we feel distant and she don't like to text anymore. I agree i feel distance between us too but huh our friendship is better when we see each other!! I feel like she is healing lil bye lil. im proud of her <3!
— yaaaayyyayayayyay i'll sleep over at her home tommorow hihi!! (she is sick... so we cancelled huuuuu i wanted to cuddle with heeerrrr mph)
— Uni is better than highschool!!
— I need a car and a boyfriend! i had a dream tonight that i had a boyfriend, it was fun... too bad he wasnt real huuuuuuuu, and dangnamit he was so kind handsome amazing cutie heart so sweet and gentle..... i think im going crazy muehehe!
— I love to walk and go outside even when I have no one to come with me, the world is too pretty (yup! "TOO"!) !!

Just a lil quick thing; no one can know what is really going on in someones head heart and body. unless the person themself. So, get to know your own self and be kind with other people hehe, take care <3

Books I read as a teenager

Books:

• Nos vies en l'air (forever in my heart!!)
• Verity (im trauma too... XD its very hum.. well.. there is lot of lqjdozeiufsdn stuff...... and omgg the end???????)
• Red queen (my fav!!!!!!)
• Shatter me (I finished it once and hate it! so I restarted it 10 times because i couldn't believe that i hate it but I already don't like this book unfortunately...)
• It ends with us
• Insomnia (muah! i love this one! cant wait to read the next chapters!!!)

Wattpad:

• Chronique de mehdi
• La chronique d'intissar
• Vendetta

Webtoon:

• Swimming lessons for a mermaid
• Teleport in a heartbeat
• My ghost
• Killstagram
• Date first, love later
• To love your enemy
• Nice to meet you
• Everything is fine
• Operation: True Love
• One day in Seoul
• Dreaming freedom
• The Remarried Empress
• Season of blossom
• High school mercenary
• Catching up to luke vishel

Manga:

• Jujutsu Kaisen
• Nana
• A silent voice
• Jujutsu Kaisen

reading was the best hobby I ever had. but idk, my brain cant do it anymore :( people change, we grow up i guess! Btw i've met a pretty doctor and he was wow.. so calm, so kind, so gentle, there was no dark vibe around him, it was pure, soothing! XDD seriously i never met a man like that. I don't like man much usually mph, yup it's contradictorial because i talk like a delulu romantic girl XD (what the what is is this word "contradictorial"???)

Other shows I saw as a teenager

Drama:

• Business proposal
• The penthouse (my favvvvvvv!!!!)
• The fabulous
• Bitch and Rich
• My name
• The glory
• 20th century girl
• True beauty
• Celebrity
• Alice in borderland (i- i- i- can we marry a serie?????? chichia was my crush btw hum hum but now i fall for Arisu and oki oki I stop... i am cook XDD )

Series:

• 13 reasons why
• Pretty little liars
• Money Heist
• Desperate Housewives
• Lock and key
• Monk
• Prison Break (Michael Scofield huuuuu i love him so muchhhhh!!!)

Cartoons:

• The amazing world of gumball (new season coming yaayyayayayy!!!)
• Adventure Time (jake is so funny HAHA)
• Gravity Falls (masterpiece i love the myster hehe)

I love watching series and drama because of the same reason as for anime xd it makes me go to another world and like a new experience idk i think everyone fan of cinema can understand, oki i am exagerating, its just i passed lot of time watching stuff with my family since i am a kid hehe, so can we call me a fan of it? i dunno XD!!

I love watching cartoons omg!! yes i only pout tawog here because there is too many other one, also one of the reason i didnt makes a list of the games i played xdd, too many to list them. but currently, im playing error143, flappy bird and amour sucré (sweet love?? yk the game with PA and castiel xdd)

Movies:

• Death race (fav fav fav)
• Deadpool & Wolverine (i prefer DC, i don't very like marvels)
• The Condemned (my mom told me i watched this one with my oncle at my grandma home when i was little!!)
• Final Destination 1-5
• It Chapter 1 & 2
• The Purge
• Birds of Prey
• Suicide Squad
• The joker
• Jurassic World 1 to the last one Rebirth
• Drawing Closer
• Real Steel
• Azur and Asmar
• Alice in wonderland 1 and 2
• Elemental
• Big hero 6
• Inside out 1 & 2
• Despicable me 1 to 4 (plus the minions and all the disney movies, dreamworks and pixar xdd)
• Sonic the hedgehog 1-3
• Tangled
• Atlantis
• Super mario bros (i love mario games btw)
• The bad guys
• 20 century girl
• Drifting home
• Bubble (omg just amazing!!!)
• Suzume (disapointement hum)
• I want to eat your pancreas
• Mary and the witch's flower
• The girl who leapt through time (good one)
• jujutsu kaisen 0
• Spirited away
• Blue lock episod nagi

Seriously i love movies, since i am kid i passed my time in front of the tv and me and my sis saw all the disney movies! With my family we used to choose every night a new movie or serie to watch. Also, with my parents, i loved to watch with them real stories, dramatic ones and more sensitive one like military mission, terrorism problem, real event, documentary, flight stories with my dad and more like mountains stories with my mom xd! Also, i loved to stay in the leaving room to watch the series and anime my sisters was watching!!

you can use my code, i dont mind, i love helping when i can so feel free to do whatever you like!!

Websites

Hi! welcome to a list of websites i almost never finished to code. For the information, I discovered computer sience in 2024 december and until then i started coding. There is not all the stuff i coded, some i just deleted it or replace IT OR WHATEVER

btw i love this gif:

detail useless, you can go to hitaku's world on neocities but the content is kinda old and there is less stuff anyways do what you want cute heart

another website i finished in one night xdd and i am proud of it, first time i used javascript for real and it was for my bff (when i say bff i mean the girl i know since i started highschool, and we was in the same class for the whole 3 years hehe)

she is too sweet i love her so much <3

omg i wrote here a letter recently wich was the best i've wrote in my whole life. i have the text on my phone if someone is curious hehe! nah it's a secret i won't show youuu hihi

byeee i am going to sleep mimimi

war is over yaayy!! i feel way more better than before!!i wish you all a peacfull life muah bye!!<3

I finnaly learned english, yup I did it (you can laugh xd!! i never said i talk well hehe, and sorry for my bad writing skills)

here, its my first website i've built

i fixed all the errors of my cooodeee hihi i am so prooouuud!!!!!!

Please never give up on your self, i know life can feel overwhelming, diffucult and all but i am pretty sure things will get better. It just need time (you need time), efforts, patience, and lil hope hehe <3